I hope someone can help me understand the following sentence:
“But I am under vows, no nun half so awfully, and I dare not tell my story yet, even to you.”
What I don’t understand is the use of the word half in this sentence. I looked it up in some dictionaries but all the meaning I found gave me no sense for the sentence.
I’m suspect that may be is a special verb meaning for example to stand.
Carmilla will not confide in the narrator because she has vowed not to divulge the secret yet.
A nun’s vows are sacred, but in Carmilla’s eyes even a nun’s vow is not half as serious as the one she has made.
I am reading the book and, in general I am understanding the story but sometimes I found things like the one I sent which are not easy to understand. In this case so few words with a big meaning.
With your pretty clear explanation, I now understand the idea. Could it be in other words as follows: Vows so awful that a nun could not stand even the half of them.
Not so much that a nun couldn’t stand them, I suspect you are misinterpreting use of the word ‘awful’. Here it means something similar to ‘powerful’. The vows are more powerful than those that a nun would be expected to make.