If I am to credit certain early mornings of self-inflicted disgust

English as a Second Language English Vocabulary, Grammar and Idioms
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My name is Renée. I am fifty-four years old. For twenty-seven years I have been the concierge at number 7, rue de Grenelle, a fine hôtel particulier with a courtyard and private gardens, divided into eight luxury apartments, all of which are inhabited, all of which are immense. I am a widow, I am short, ugly, and plump, I have bunions on my feet and, if I am to credit certain early mornings of self-inflicted disgust, the breath of a mammoth. Excerpt: 'The Elegance Of The Hedgehog' : NPR

What does the clause in bold mean?

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Clearly she has a very low opinion of herself. The last sentence says something like this -

If I am to believe what I experience some mornings when I actually disgust myself by checking my own breath (self-inflicted refers to something you do to yourself) then I must have the breath you would expect from some sort of dragon (in other words very bad smelling breath).

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