I got plenty of nothing.........................

Growing old don’t bother me
I’ve had a fruitful life.
With lavish homes and swanky cars
And a loving, tender wife.
With hundreds of thousands of pounds in the bank
And too many suits to wear.
I just gave them away and bought others
For I was a millionaire.
Oh sure, I’ve had friends by the dozen
Held parties and dined through the night
But where are your friends when you need one?
They’ve all disappeared and took flight.
Now I sit with my dogs and my keyboard
And here I will sit till the end
For I don’t give a fig for the things that I had.
I’ll leave that to the folk who pretend.

Kitos.

Dear Kytos,

I read this poem now. Every thought is true if we were rich or poor. Our best friends preceded us and they passed away sooner than me. Now I think only three of them, they were true friends and younger few years than us. Till our couple is near us we never will be solitary.

Now I was looking for a sentence of you what you wrote to me when I revealed to you that I was not religious. You were not shocked at this but you wrote a sentence something like: “Kati, Help you your God.” Sorry if I quoted badly but I will look for it. It was very precise because really in myself I have a God, my parents taught me to be religious.

There was a guy in the Forum who wanted me forcibly convert me to a faith. He sent me the Word of God from the Bible. Once I needed urgently a piece of advice and he answered me I will answer your question next week. It was Friday and I needed this advice and my God -as you said - helped me.

After I looked for the dictionary how to say in English : PHARASEE
PHARASEE = a person who is very proud of the fact that they have high religious and moral standards, but who does not care enough about other people.(Oxford Dictionary)

I think in life I met lot of pharasees, its synonym hypocrites that’s why it is true what you wrote to me, because one single thing is important : we have God inside of us or not. You taught me this and it is very good.

Many thanks for this thought. When I read it - for the first time I didn’t recognize the beauty and the truth of this sentence but later it grew in me and it accompanies me along life.

Many thanks for it. I hope you are healthy.

Best Regards:
Kati Svaby

Hello Kitos and Kati,
As I’ve aged, I’ve become kinder to, and less critical of, myself, I’ve become my own friend. I’ve seen too many dear friends leave this world. too soon, before they understood the great freedom that comes with ageing. Whose business is it, if I choose to read or play on the computer until 4 AM, or sleep until noon?

I will walk the beach, in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body and will dive into the waves with abandon, if I choose to, despite the pitying glances from the jet set, they. too, will get old.

I know I am sometimes forgetful, but there again, some of life is just well forgotten. And eventually I remember the important things. As you get older, it’s easier to be positive. You care less about what other people think. I don’t question myself anymore. I’ve even earned the right to be wrong.

So, to answer your question, I like being old. It has set me free, I like the person I’ve become. I’m not going to live forever, but while I’m still here, I will not waste time lamenting what could have been, or worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert every single day if I feel like it.
By the way, I like reading your stories,
Take care!
Unchan

Dear Unchan,

I never believed that you are about in the same age than me. It’s true that I changed my pic for a younger one, but I’ve made no secret of my age that I am over 71.

You write that for you it is easier to be positive. But you write always “I” and I don’t know whether this means you are independent of your couple or you are responsible for another person in every hour of the day.

We can enjoy our elderly days , "Growing old don’t bother me I’ve had a fruitful life. " I can borrow this sentence.

Growing old after a teeming life isn’t same. When I used to be young I was looking for to being a retiree as soon as possible and to doing as the fancy takes me. As a young I can’t imagine that I will have to go to funerals more and more frequently. My best friends are smiling at me in their photos.

Who are still alive they live in the same way than us. Everybody is in his/her den. Each for this case the others for another problem.

I would be still healthy, I could go to the swimming pool every day, but I am responsible for my husband and I stay at home to take care of him. I am happy that I am STILL able to write letters here.

C’est la vie.

Kati

Good morning Ladies. I am happy to see that my words still have the power to provoke interest in you all.

Old Kitos is still kicking around and as active as ever thanks to my three little pals. I never dreamed that I would become a dog-lover … sure, I always liked dogs, but nowadays my interest in them borders on obsession. They are my source of joy and constant amusement.

My friends are all long-gone now and I am well aware that one by one my dogs will leave me too, but in the meantime I live in the NOW, rarely thinking of the past or even the future, same as my dogs do.

I see many older people, some living alone without an animal companion and I wonder why they have never discovered the joy and loyalty of a furry friend. It doesn’t cost a fortune to have such a companion beside you … one that will never leave or betray you, as many friends often do.
There are no divided loyalties when you have such a friend. They stick by you through the good times and the bad.

Well, on a more carefree note,I thank you Ladies for your continued interest in my welfare , and I wish you all a belated Happy New Year. Speak to you soon.

Love. Kitos.

Good evening Kytos, we are very happy that you let us know that still kicking around and as active as ever thanks to your three little pals. You are a very lucky man because if I know well you used to smoke; or do you smoke yet?
If I had been at home I would have answered you sooner. We were invited for a lunch.

The dogs can be our source of joy if I lived all year in a house with garden I would keep a dog. But in winter we live in a flat on the fifth level. The dog wants to walk and if I am in a bad state he/she wants to go and could express it. “It’s time-Let’s go!”

(As my husband is very ill I told him do not go to this lunch-invitation. But I can’t do anything -if he wants to go. We went down the street and our garage is five minutes walking. It took us 20 minutes he could walk only 2 steps and after we have to stop to breath.)

(When we came home he told me: " go up and make a tea and I drive the car in the garage." When he came home and opened the door - you can’t imagine that a disciplined man wailed . “I have no air.” He went directly to the oxygen he could very difficultly to put into his nose because his hands trembled and his mouth was blue. I had to undress him. After few moments he said to me. I believed that I will die. I had no air, I felt that I will suffocate…)

Excuse me that I let you into our life. But it was so terrible that I am under its influence. Now he is sitting here in our living room because there is oxygen in this room also. And he is listening to the news. "What happened to me? "-he repeats to himself. But he is very ill for more than sixteen years. He has COPD-it is an incurable illness, so I know punctually what will happen to us. He used to be a chain-smoker -80 cigarettes/day.

When I arrived home I turned off the TV after i wanted to go to the kitchen to make the tea. I heard that an actor told one of my favourite poems. I was listening to it then I didn’t know that few minutes later my husband felt his death near. It is a very sad but beautiful poem. I felt that it was a sign that I turned on the TV and I heard this poem. Can I share with you? I know you are a poet and expert of poems.

/Translators:
Ozsváth, Zsuzsanna; Turner, Frederick/

The best is the last line but if I had translated I could have translated in other way; of course I never could translate a poem only I could criticize it.

It is very difficult to translate because of its word-order.
The essential verb to die of/from sth From/of will he die? Answer is at the beginning of the line:I lived.
He wrote:
I lived - and others also died from it. (This is a translation word for word.)
What is your opinion the both translations mean the same?

Best Regards and have a good time with your three little pals:

Kati Svaby

Hi Kati,

Thank you for sharing the poem which was well written. I like your photo, my photo was taken in 2009 when I joined ETN forum. I’m 50 plus, but I have many elderly girlfriends in Australia. I have lost many young friends in Thailand who were killed by cancer. You can see , death is never measured by ages, so we shall enjoy our lives as much as we can. I think your husband is a very lucky man as he has got you side by side, well support and take such a good care of him. That is all we need when we live our lives close to an end. I really envy him…Bye now…Unchan

Dear Unchan,

Many thanks for your letter. You look younger than 50.

I like that you were so brave that you could leave your country-home.I think you have your reason to do in this way.

We had also every possibility to live in another country but at the last minute my husband - who grew up on the Hungarian culture, he is attached to the Hungarian culture - he told me that he doesn’t want to live in any country where he has to defend the Hungarian culture.

You know he is a painter. For example this poem (in Kitos 'letter) was written by a Hungarian poet, Attila József. Who knows him? Only some translators or some literary men.

For my husband these poets, writers, painters, sculptors.composers, actors, singers and so on are very important. Don’t misunderstand him he was never nationalist, he likes the good art if it is not Hungarian or African etc.

But we stayed here because he told me that he can’t live in a country where the people don’t know who was Attila József and other very good Hungarian artists who helped his mind to become what he became.

The small countries have this problem all over the world. There are people who don’t care about it, who are men of the world, and there are others who says “for me very important these artists and I can’t live in a country where their capacity is called in question.” One of Hungarians poets -who were Jewish and that’s why in the WWII he had been shot to death during their death march by a Hungarian Nazi; because he dropped out off the line.The death-march was still in Hungary. He had written the next poem. A poem about how much he loved his country.One of the best of the patriotic lyric poetry.

What a contradiction if you think how much he loved his birthplace country and he was killed by a Hungarian Nazi . I wanted to quote only two lines that I think it is impossible to pick out at random two lines. So here the whole poem.

The underlined lines he mentioned a Hungarian poet: Mihály Vörösmarty -it hurt him that a stranger his name doesn’t mean anything.

Many thanks.

Take care.

Kati