Hi dear AS
To know firstly that you need to improve your listening, writing and understanding skills is the beginning of you succes in English.
We, all the learners are like you. But What is my advice to you is to try the ideas of Torsten: Surrounding yourself with English every day and listening from radio
some news like BBC or watch the english film. Don’t be ashamed because of mistakes that you make when you are speaking English. English is not your mother’s toungue it is not your native language then you can’t speak it like a native one. So Listen a wonderful saying : Practice make perfect, and where is the will there is a way. For sure your willingness is ok, so it depend on you now to practice.
This is my friendship gift to you
see you
Kevinzos